just wanna scream loudly..!

I didnt know what I feel actually, only the sadness and cruelty became gost of my day lately,
in my life, i always feel in doubt.
i got contradict statement of my life.
my thinking wants to catch one thing,
but my feeling wants to catch the different one.
so difficult to know who i am now :(

i miss the togetherness when i was in senior high school
now, i feel so lonely!
when the tears are dripping around my check, no one who can wipes it
but formely, all of guys could make me free of guilty in life.
they could make me sad into happy and cheer up.

whenever i grow, i cant give the mean my growth yet,
wherever i stay, i cant understand my presence,
when i sing, i cant hear my clear voice,

as usual, many things that make me afraid for facing this life, they are able make me down and fragile.
absolutely, i dont find my standing up yet.
oh...Lord!

what the funkin' gost that has frame me up?
as thaught i often feel confuse with ma self.
pity on me ;(

in everyday,
never absent the accident of making me sad and guilty.
but i realize that the kinds of it, is temptation only.

i wanna free of this cruelty...!
i wanna feel safe...!

be sure, that i can pass this situation.
in the name of Allah..!!!